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Kamis, 04 Juni 2009

love story part 1



Remember the time when first time i meet you, make me amaze..


how we meet only from one social network.


one night in march, i feel bored alone. i open my pc then connect to the internet. connection not really good, but at least i can online with my friends from yahoo messenger favo site.


say hi to friend and chit chat for a minutes make fresh. im browsing another social network from google. i found one interesting site http://www.p******t.com/


then search who's online there. i see one cool guy there. but i should register and add him as a friend.


least, he approved to be my friend.


we talk about anything till i ask his id for yahoo.


then start from it, i feel something speacial for my new friend. eventhough only by cyber, but i m really serious with him. we had a time difference about 6 hours. if im wake up he just start to sleep. but he is very understand me..


he wait me every morning till i arrived at office (time on his city its a sleeping time, )...


one day we had fight. am very jeallous till i sent him a blame messages. i said he had another girlfriend. its a really bad blame to him. i feel so guilty...trying to angry with my self. i dont know, i feel so childish.


i try to ask him forgive me, but he refuse. he hurted coz of my words..


i know he was upset with me since that day. he wont talk with me for a days..


i beg him, i swear will never angry or blame him anymore. my past make me sad. my past make me think how im very dissapoint with a man. and i was learn how to healing my heart from the broken heart.


he is cold, hard guy to understand (maybe long distance make me have to understand him more)


i dont know, but i trust him. its different with another man friend i have before.friend only. not more than just a friend. mostly i only talk with them then leave and forget that man. coz i know what those man say do not like what they did. but with him, my beloved one, i can share what i feel, what i believe. my happiness, my sadness, my angry and my love...i give a special place for him..in my heart..

Panic makes me awake..



10 minutes past from 4.45 pm. all day i feel sleepy,especially after lunch time.

Then tryed to killing time by browsed some site and trying to ejoye the opened site still can't make me awake...till one sametime from my program manager make me shocked (better to say im panic) . He want me to find some files that i've been never see before about some project report.

before this files handled by one friend then hand over to another friend and now this friend was enjoyed her holiday with family in Turkey.

trying to find by my self this files. without telling anyone coz i think i can. minutes pass. im worried if my boss will wait for long time. then i ping my friend on her blackberry. she replied me. she told me to looking at one folder on shared drive. searching, open, reading then i see one files name same withh the name my boss told me. i open but its not exactly but still same material. trying to send this files, he not really agreed but happy cant find a track of this files. hen i trying to find another name for this files. then my friend end up, at last i send another files which is summary of this files. PERFECT!!!! by my self i can find the files my boss wanted and i didnt ask my friend to help me again...

after all, a cup of coffee make me awake with happy and i forget about my sleepy feels. thanks my boss to awake me this afternoon..